8.01.2006
it finally rained. i wish i could express my elation of standing outside quite dribblings of the sky. give me a good thunderstorm anyday, but it was nice to just be outside and enjoy the perfectness that is rain.
this summer has been good so far, but i can't help but feel a little destroyed too. maybe destroyed is too strong, but that is almost where i am at. i am looking forward to college, but don't really know what i want to do. i say i want an international business degree, but they people say "well, what are you going to do with that?". and then i'm back to square one. i don't know what i want/can/should do with that. this summer is slipping away. don't get me wrong, i have done a lot of things i really wanted to do. and finally being able to hang out with friends without stressing out about something in the back of my mind has been phenomenal. but a certain combination of uncertainty and unemployment has left me here. not knowing what i want. and penny-less as well. i have gained a new appreciation of my close friends though, and i can't imagine what i would do without them.
the summer isn't over though. i still have time to do a few things, scratch the surface of finding a purpose. why am i here? what the heck am i supposed to do?
i like songs about drifters-books about the same.
they both seem to make me feel a little less insane.
walked on off to another spot.
i still haven't gotten anywhere that i want.
did i want love? did i need to know?
why does it always feel like i'm caught in an undertow?
my thoughts were so loud i couldn't hear my mouth.
the world at large - modest mouse
this summer has been good so far, but i can't help but feel a little destroyed too. maybe destroyed is too strong, but that is almost where i am at. i am looking forward to college, but don't really know what i want to do. i say i want an international business degree, but they people say "well, what are you going to do with that?". and then i'm back to square one. i don't know what i want/can/should do with that. this summer is slipping away. don't get me wrong, i have done a lot of things i really wanted to do. and finally being able to hang out with friends without stressing out about something in the back of my mind has been phenomenal. but a certain combination of uncertainty and unemployment has left me here. not knowing what i want. and penny-less as well. i have gained a new appreciation of my close friends though, and i can't imagine what i would do without them.
the summer isn't over though. i still have time to do a few things, scratch the surface of finding a purpose. why am i here? what the heck am i supposed to do?
i like songs about drifters-books about the same.
they both seem to make me feel a little less insane.
walked on off to another spot.
i still haven't gotten anywhere that i want.
did i want love? did i need to know?
why does it always feel like i'm caught in an undertow?
my thoughts were so loud i couldn't hear my mouth.
the world at large - modest mouse
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angie
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3:19:00 PM
