10.14.2005
so basically i have been walking around in a daze. i am not quite sure of what i think of myself or what i think of others at this point. i've had to resort to putting up this smiling front at school, which im not fond of doing (im actually a bit disappointed in myself). im upset that i feel i have to do this in front of my friends, but, i feel as though i will be looked down upon if i don't.
tennis is going well...this season has been the best yet. however, in retrospect, i feel like the day i signed up for tennis this year i sold my soul.
i bet if you looked at my auora, it would be very dark. i am feeling a bit empty right now.
really, what is getting me through the school day is my lunch break, thanks to the lunch crew, and i think you know who you are. panera, taco john's, mcd, the flippin' sweet tunage-thanks guys, more than you could even imagine.
my sister gave me the postal service cd (props to her for that) and its pretty much amazing. i have been listening to "sleeping in" obsessively, and it could possibly be one of the saddest songs i have ever listened to. there is a line in it that goes "slightly bored and severely confused", which is my favorite line because, well, that's me.
i'll leave y'all with some more of the song. listen to it, because i said so. oh right, like i have that much authority. and the more i read this stanza, the sadder i become...but it's such an amazing song i can't stop listening.
Again last night I had that strange dream
Where everything was exactly how it seemed
Where concerns about the world getting warmer
The people thought they were just being rewarded
For treating others as they'd like to be treated
For obeying stop signs and curing diseases
For mailing letters with the address of the sender
Now we can swim any day in November
-The Postal Service
tennis is going well...this season has been the best yet. however, in retrospect, i feel like the day i signed up for tennis this year i sold my soul.
i bet if you looked at my auora, it would be very dark. i am feeling a bit empty right now.
really, what is getting me through the school day is my lunch break, thanks to the lunch crew, and i think you know who you are. panera, taco john's, mcd, the flippin' sweet tunage-thanks guys, more than you could even imagine.
my sister gave me the postal service cd (props to her for that) and its pretty much amazing. i have been listening to "sleeping in" obsessively, and it could possibly be one of the saddest songs i have ever listened to. there is a line in it that goes "slightly bored and severely confused", which is my favorite line because, well, that's me.
i'll leave y'all with some more of the song. listen to it, because i said so. oh right, like i have that much authority. and the more i read this stanza, the sadder i become...but it's such an amazing song i can't stop listening.
Again last night I had that strange dream
Where everything was exactly how it seemed
Where concerns about the world getting warmer
The people thought they were just being rewarded
For treating others as they'd like to be treated
For obeying stop signs and curing diseases
For mailing letters with the address of the sender
Now we can swim any day in November
-The Postal Service
8)
angie
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